Wednesday, March 18, 2020
“The Garden of Golgotha was an old quarry that had been recycled into a garden. But before the garden of Golgotha, where He was crucified, there was a garden of Gethsemane, where Jesus underwent his greatest crisis of faith.” (Sweet, Leonard, Jesus, 2012;Nashville,TN; 219)
I don’t know where you are right now, but in the church, we are in the season of lent where we are reflecting on the trial, crucifixion and (hallelujah) resurrection of Jesus. It seems fitting that we feel as if our way of life is on trial and even at risk of being buried. We are seeing less and less people. Crowds are nowhere to be seen! All of this is necessary, but it doesn’t take into account how it affects our soul.
For me I am going through the 5 stages of Grief in all kinds of order. At first, I was in-denial, even aloof of the prospect of what could happen. Then I became angry; angry at the hoarders, angry at the government…Now I think I am in a state of sadness and acceptance. This is what life is going to be and it is sad.
It wasn’t until seminary did I feel like I was allowed to feel angry. In the Psalms we have people who expressed all their emotions at and with God.
How have you felt over the past week?
I think about Jesus in the Garden. This was where he had a crisis of faith. His will and God’s will did not align. He asked for the cup to taken from him. He was so distressed that he sweet blood. Our health persons probably know the term. (hematidrosis). After his time of prayer he finally combined and submitted his will so that it matched God’s, but Jesus was distressed, anxious, “overwhelmed with sorrow.” (Mark 13:33-34).
Again, where are you? What are you emotions at this moment?
We have talked about where they have been? Wherever you are, know that Jesus experiences them with you. He knows anger, He knows sadness, he knows anxiety. Rest in that Jesus is present with you and will be there wherever this thing goes and finally ends.
I look forward to the end of this disease, this pandemic. I look forward to being with people again. Just as we know Jesus was resurrected from that tomb, we will make it through this together. But it may be a while. So until then we have to find a new normal. When I was thinking of our situation I was reminded today of the Israelites who wandered the desert 40 years before they went into the holy land. Normal life seems like the holy land for me right now…who would have thought that two weeks ago we would be longing for normal life? Things will be different. I think and hope that once we are out of all of this…we will cherish community more!